One day away!

Tomorrow I will be in Lima, Peru seeing the sights and feeling exhausted from a long plane ride. I cannot wait to get the adventure started. I am so nervous and excited. Hopefully I will be able to shake off this uncertain feeling that I have towards my travel partner and will be able to let go of the annoyance and hurt and all that other negative jazz. I am hoping that this trip will open the gates of my creativity and imagination. I want to have a great time and see things that I have only read about in books. Like my Board President said, " you can only do this while you are young, like you, and you don't have any tie to anyone or anything." Of course I had to remind him that I do have ties to work. So, I will be back in August to continue my legacy at LBBF. It will be time to leave this place soon enough but in the meantime I have six weeks aways from what my life has become and I have a blank slate with which to recreate and reinvent myself, my friendships and my world. One more day....eek! The next blog will be from somewhere in Peru!

Little Brother's Graduation

Hello kiddies. So, I went to see my little brother graduate from 5th grade today. where is the time flying?! there are only two days until i leave for South America and I have not packed. I am not nearly ready and I am nervous as hell. I am sure this will be a great adventure but the undertainty is killing me. Plus when I come back my lil bro will be taller than I am. So sad :(

In any case, graduations are always a good family time and playing arcade games at Dave&Busters was fun too.

One week left

Hey kids. I have one week before my departure for South America and I am honestly not sure if I can keep this blog up while I am gone but I will try since my parents will be checking it and my brothers will be checking it and I want to tell them that I am ok every chance I get. I am genuinely stressed out and super nervous about the trip. I am excited with anticipation and am hoping I will loose the nerves when I finally get to Peru. Macchu Piccu here I come.

Mentor

I had lunch with my mentor today and it is always great to see her and feel validated in what I do. Sometimes as a Director of a nonprofit you get zero credit and all the work... that is why I am in it for the good work that we do for our community's youth so I am definitely not in it for the glory so when you get praise from someone you respect it feels really good.
Although sometimes I think I have delusions of grandeur. I feel like I am in the wrong business because I am narcissitic and want the praise, glory and fame associated with money and power. But that often subsides and I remember that I want to change the world and feeding the whores of power isn't going to help me change the world. I believe that I can change the world. I really do. Don't you?

More madness

So, I have had some bad luck these last couple days. That is, if you believe in bad luck. I fell on my ass at the Courthouse while I was running my program and I got a flat tire yesterday which I had to change myself since my dad did not want to drive all the way out to Long Beach. I mean what is the deal with that?! I guess I just have to realize that I am an adult not some kid in college anymore so I gots to take care of my own crap. The worst is that I missed out on having dinner with my friend the wise Pharmacist but no worries I am having dinner with her on Monday if I can shake off this bad luck.

You know I honestly feel as though I have been putting out bad Energy into the universe so the universe shot negative energy right back at me. I guess I need to be grateful that I am alive and that I am going on this trip in a little more than a week. I get to have dinner with my mentor tomorrow and see my family over the weekend and then I get to do last minute shopping and go to my little brother's 5th grade graduation... which is really a big big deal!

I feel old.

How I see it

Here is how I see it...











"What we do for yourself dies with us. What you do for others and the the world remains and is immortal." -Albert Pine

2 Weeks Until Lift Off

So, hello all you bloggers out there. this is my first experience at a blog so please forgive me if i seem dull or uninteresting. i am heading off to South America for six weeks, yes six weeks and I am very excited to get started. i cannot wait until i feel free with the excitement of adventure! I am sure that i will be posting things here from time to time so feel free to browse at your leisure.
and yes, work let me go for six weeks and i am going with two friends from college although i am not sure that we are going to stay friends after the trip. i mean a friend of mine always said expect the worst and hope for the best and that is what i am doing. expecting the worst. ha! i will be traveling to Peru, Brazil and Argentina and i know i will have the best time. although i worry about returning to the same old after a trip like this... i mean, this life that i have now can't be IT. there has to be more to life than work and family... ok maybe friends and then what you start the cycle over with your own family and then what... is that it? ok, i am ranting. the point is that i am about to embark on an adventure of a lifetime. who knew this stupid coffee girl had it in her.